I CAN BE YOUR HERO

why so serious

salam people, so here's me!!! wasting time on blogging again, ahahehe... its going to be a very short one, i promise!!!zzzz... well actually if i do write a bit long isoke right, since exam and osce are finally OVER!!!ohohoho horlicksssSS baik bukak quran kan isshh

kind of miss that someone to talk about problems that im having right now, sigh... alahai malam yang indah dengan bulan hampir penuh dipagari bebintang ni nak start jiwang la pulak kan, ahaha... cant wait to go back to Malaysia on this saturday!!! too much things happened while im here, not to mention that i missed my brother's wedding last year!!!my truly beloved sister graduation!!!i missed to hold Allisya on her ealy days after born... now my younger brother just discharged from hospital for an operation, this very close cousin just divorced, this mr x just died(al-fatihah to him), and the mr y just involved in an accident that the person he hit died, and this3 anak2 kelinci pon banyak yang mati sekarang =( ... one thing that im sure, mine is not as bad as they are facing right now, tula...sometimes when we feel like our problem is the worst thing ever happen, look around u, see what's hidden behind their smile, seriously im kind of grateful that im facing this problem right now, its like my brain start to work properly again, started to see the world as it is again... sorry yee, dulu my mum selalu cakap saya ni 'perumahan' orangnya, jalan jauh2 skit nak balik rumah, ahaha

*maka ingatlah semua di dunia ni adalah pinjaman semata2, bukan milik kita yang kekal kan ;)

so its been quite a few months already i didn't touch my sweethearts, i dont know whether its a good thing or not, or maybe i'll regret after this kan, even now i dont get the tempo correctly, not to mention fingering kan...  what if im back in malaysia, and friends ask to go jamming, mesti sangat malu kan x power macam diorang, kalau yang tersedia ada pon memburuk, dont say about improvement la, agak sedih senanye, but im sure there are good things behind it, im 100% sure!!!

bila dah lama x berkecimpung dalam ngeband nila jadi nya, layan balik lagu2 gini, ahaha... well, used to super like this song veli2 much masa kecik2, cute, montel dulu2, ahaha...

oh btw hows ur osce?? i saw u mcm blurr je that time, haha... mine?? dont worry, it was full of laughter(or should i say slaughter??) with the doctors, lol... well its obvious that i dont really prepared for this year osce, two days seriously wont be enough for 10 stations u see, so overall nya, when something went wrong, i looked at the doctors and try to create the sweetest smile ever, haha... yeahh they laugh, and im quite sure they wrote 'FAIL' on those papers, lol... 

and do u realise nowadays people keep talking about illuminati and eveything, its good to make us always aware of things that going on around... its very good, hopefully from this info that keep been updated on any social networks, people change, people get ready for any possibilities... dont get scared, dont fight among us over this issue, just think of it as a reminder for us to be well prepared, in term of strength, iman, and taqwa to Allah swt, ameen...

al-Anfal : 60

" and make ready agaisnt them all you can of power, including steeds of war(tanks, planes, missiles, artillery, etc.) to threaten the enemy of Allah and your enemy, and others besides whom, you may not know but whom Allah does know. and whatever you shall spend in the Cause of Allah shall be repaid unto you, and you shall not be treated unjustly "

isn't it beautiful, that Islam teaches us to be humble in everything we do... but not when it comes to war... its just that how actually the muslims doing it wrong, sigh... kita sangatlah kadang2 bermegah2 dengan hidup kita, bukak puasa mana boleh satu lauk, nak rumah yang besar2, kawin nak grand2, phone kalau x touch screen jangan haraplaa... but when it comes to the illuminati thing, when people post a video about it, we scared, we scare about their power, we scare to tell the world that we are having the nuclear weapon, we scare to help our brothers, we hide the truth, and we tell the lies, just because we scare of them, sangat lah humble nya kita bila masa untuk membantu saudara2 kita kan, sangatlah humble kita ni dalam persiapan untuk perang, sangatlah humble kita dalam persiapan mental, iman, dan taqwa kita ni kan berbanding dengan kemegahan2 duniawi, sigh again... see people, we are doing it wrong!!! so people, let us unite, let us change, lets be more arrogant in facing these enemies of Allah, our enemies as well!!! lets over do it!!!

sabda Rasullullah saw,

" Seandainya dunia sebanding dengan satu sayap lalat di sisi Allah swt, nescaya Dia tidak akan memberikan seteguk air pun bagi seorang kafir " 

HR. At-Tirmidzi

till then, stay healthy, be happy, believe in Him... =)

OSCE

Berapa station agak2 fail esok nih??haha... Nevermind holiday is coming soon!!! Wish u guys all the best!!! And u, goodluck!!! Lol

P/s~ short post by phone, goodnight people

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OUT OF SIGHT

how our senses sometimes block our imagination

so unfair...

GOODLUCK for OSCE people =)

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

when i see your face

there's not a thing that i would change

phewww

kbai.

STAY HEALTHY

salam people... i dont know whether this is a good decision to write a new post or not, since ive been leaving for quite sometime kan, i dont really bother of posting something new here, i guess, zzzz....even right now i feel like shy2 cat to write this, haha... so u know now is Ramadhan!!!we fast, we breakfast, and we improve ourselves from being good to a better person in the future, insyaAllah... =)


so this post overall nya will be just like other bloggers will do, talking about Ramadhan, end of block exam, and holiday fever!!! lol, and not to forget this coming OSCE!!! man, seriously dunno where to start!!!grrrr... so far, the block exam just now was quite 'satisfying'. in term of how much the effort was, haha... but seriously this block, phewww, i even managed to cover only 2weeks plus2, what about the other 3weeks plus2??haha, wasted... but so far i really grateful it was not so bad at all, Alhamdulillah...


Ramadhan, so far so good, still manage to fast like others did, still manage to get up from bed for sahur, still spending time di surau2 berdekatan, still manage to cover 2 juz per day, still healthy, and still doing some not so good things, sigh... =( ... ini bukan untuk buka aib sendiri di public, tapi this is the truth kan, what to do.. agak2 dah berapa tebal catatan nama NIK MUHAMMAD TORIQ di pintu2 neraka ye??? dengan berbekalkan amalan segini rupa agak2 dah padam ke nama tadi dalam kalangan ahli neraka???*selsema . hopefully in this months of baraqah, months of Ramadhan will trigger the effort, the full effort to realease out this full potential of becoming a good muslim, ameen....


actually somewhere in my heart says i wanna go back, go back home, and go back to the past during my childhood... seems pretty interesting, hmmm... forget all the troubles, and spending time with family, wuhuuu!!! oh Allisya, lama la pulak tak bertanya kabar pasal budak kecik tu kan, besor dah kot, makin cute maybe, haha...


oke lah, banyak mengelamun kat sini pon tade guna, jom berbagi skripsi dulu lah... assalamualaikum people, stay healthy, pray hard =)

TORA DATANG LAGI

its been quite sometimes since my last post aite, when is it?? zzzzz... rasa macam xtaw nak mula dengan apa sena nye ni, bab kata sorang sahabat ni banyak je benda nak cakap, tapi semua macam bercampur gaul... ohyaaa now is Ramadhan people!!! Alhamdulillah 1st day of fasting berjalan lancar je, saturday clinic pagi tadi pon macam biasa je, tade lah seperti yang bermain di fikiran sebelumnya, hew3... so after went back from faculty, ada berlakunya ketiadaan elektrik di rumah sampai lah petang, dan naseb baik laa sekarang tengah musim sejuk kan, mandi pagi pon sampai terloncat2, terguling2, dan sebagainya... bukan laa terloncat2 masa tengah mandi la ye, maksudnya dari kamar mandi nak balik ke bilik sendiri.... dan syukurlah lepas balik asar elektrik mula kembali pulih, baru pasang nawaitu nak tidor, haha, dan tiba2 tak ingat la pulak ada program before bukak puasa ngan junior sepanjang Ramadhan kat sini... batalkan niat dan beramah mesra dengan mereka2 ni pon bermula... dari aktiviti tadi pon, mula lah ingat balik, atau sedar balik apa kekurangan diri ni yang sejak dari dulu lagi tak pernah ada, that is mengajar orang... nak ikut kan padahal abah n mama dua2 cikgu cekgi, tapi tade la pulak gene tu kan... even dulu2 pon if sesi mengajar adik2 pon terpaksa serahkan to my sister since i had no patient to teach people, or should i say im totally not talented, lol... but isoke, maybe after this i should slowly learn on how to teach people, means how to sampaikan knowledge dengan cara yang berkesan dan berilmiah, -__-"...

actually these few days i was planning to post about whats happening lately, memang agak penat lah pikir sorang2 pon sebelumnya, tapi dengan berbekalkan kejantanan, dan kelakian yang sedia ada, ku tempuhi dengan kuat, hahaha... agak segan di sini, tapi i really appreciate those words from u guys that keep me on fighting, focusing on what i should really do... oh dan thanks to this budak kecik yang everytime suruh saya semangat, dan post ayat2 al-Quran yang saya fikir sangat lah menusuk ke jiwa kalbu diwaktu2 macam ni... oh dan lagi, sampai ada yang kutip2 sumbangan la pulak, isshh segan den, seriously, tapi terima kasih banyak2, moga2 ikhlas dan mendapat keberkatan dari Nya... so tengah2 planning ni, tiba2 dapat la pulak satu tazkirah dari masjid kampung kesayangan kita semua ni, Masjid Gandok Mulia, haha, i mean 'kita' tu my house members lerr... lol

diceritakan satu kesah pada waktu Rasulullah saw sedang bersama2 sahabat, tiba2 pandangan baginda seperti beralih sebentar, lalu baginda Muhammad saw mengalihkan kembali pandangan baginda kepada para sahabat dan berkata, "sebentar lagi akan muncul di hadapan pintu itu seorang penghuni syurga"... para sahabat tadi mengalihkan pandangan mereka ke arah pintu tersebut untuk melihat wajah seorang yang dijanjikan syurga tadi... dan muncul lah seorang pemuda dengan wajah nya basah dengan wudhu, sambil membawa selipar jepit(xsure la dia sebut tu selipar jepit ke ape, kalau salah betolkan,hehe)... hal tersebut berulang lagi pada hari kedua, kata2 yang sama dilafazkan oleh baginda... dan para sahabat menanti siapa kah yang dijanjikan sebagai ahli syurga, dan pemuda yang sama muncul dengan wajah nya dibasahi dengan wudhu... sehinggalah pada hari ketiga, perkara yang sama berulang... jadi salah seorang sahabat ni rasa sangat curious nak taw apa kah amalan pemuda tadi sehingga beliau dijanjikan oleh Allah swt sebagai seorang penghuni syurga... maka bermula lah planning sahabat sorang ni tadi(lupa nama apa, maybe boley google je cerita ni kot)... sahabat ni berkunjung ke rumah pemuda ni dengan nawaitu nak spy laa amalan apa yang istimewa sangat yang berbeza dengan amalan2 para sahabat yang lain, beliau memberikan alasan bahawa beliau ada masalah dengan keluarga beliau dan mintak untuk menumpang disana... jadi pada siang nya dia memerhati je tingkah laku pemuda tadi, dan ternyata belum ada amalan khusus yang terdeteksi oleh beliau, so beliau fikir maybe ni malam nanti sure kaw2 lah pemuda ni beribadat kepada Allah swt... so malam pon menjelma, beliau tak tidor, tunggu je nak korek rahsia dari pemuda ni tadi...namun hampa, penantian beliau sia2, why?? bukan nak cakap pemuda tadi tak buat pape, tapi dari penilaian sahabat ni tadi ternyata amalan pemuda tadi cuma sama dengan sahabat2 yang lain... setelah 3 malam dia menumpang di rumah pemuda ni tadi, maka dia pon putus asa lah dengan kegiatan spy yang kurang berjaya ni, so beliau menceritakan hal yang sebenar dan sempat bertanya, "sudah 3 malam aku menumpang di rumah kamu, kerana aku mahu melihat apakah amalan khusus yang kamu buat sehingga kan rasul Allah saw mengatakan bahawa kamu sebagai penghuni syurga, tetapi ternyata apa yang dapat aku lihat amalan kamu biasa2 saja, sama seperti amalan2 sahabat yang lain"... ni beliau macam dah putus asa, dan beredar... tengah berjalan tu, pemuda ni panggil balik, dan gtaw, " mungkin aku tidak tahu apakah amalan khusus yang aku buat sehingga kan dijanjikan syurga oleh rasulullah, tetapi setiap kali aku bangun dari tidor, aku redha dengan segala ketentuan yang ditetapkan oleh Allah swt, dan aku tidak pernah dendam atau dengki dengan yang lain, mungkin inilah yang menjadikan aku istimewa di hadapan Allah swt"... oh ye pemuda ni ialah Saad bin Abi Waqqas, antara 10 sahabat yang dijanjikan masuk syurga.

" Redha dengan setiap ketentuan Allah swt, tidak pernah dengki dengan yang lain, mungkin amalan ini membuat aku ISTIMEWA DI HADAPAN ALLAH SWT "

walaupon saya nampak ganas, dengan muka berparut2(parut jerawat), badan yang besar macam pembuli tegar di sekolah2 rendah, haha, tapi cuma dengan kata2, rasa macam kena tembak ngn M16 kat dada tembus sampai ke belakang... rasa macam sangat lah xappropriate mengeluh benda yang kecik macam ni, even if benda besar pon still xpatot ye, semua ni dirancang semuanya oleh Allah swt, sesungguhnya hanya Dia lah sebaik2 perencana kan, dan setiap benda berlaku ni bukan just for fun ke ape, pasti ada hikmah disebalik kejadian yang berlaku ni... maka moga2 dengan ujian2 ni, kita semua dapat perbaiki diri, belajar dari kesilapan, dan hopefully dengan ujian ni semua, yang terpenting nya supaya ia dapat mendekatkan lagi diri kita kepada Pencipta kita Allah swt, ameen...

btw exam block is coming soon!!!OSCE as well!!! comel je datang berdua2an macam ni, macam tora datang lagi pon ada, -__-"... so hoping for the best for us, maybe after this post pon xkan ada lah post2 lain dalam masa terdekat ni since i'll be busy with examsS, and the problem thingy, still got alot of things to settle, till then, take care, be more productive, tingkatkan iman dan taqwa, dont miss me, lol... kbai.salam...

TEKANAN

lama dah kan xrasa tekanan macam ni... kadang2 datang je benda2 yang tak rasional nak buat... ya ALLAH!!!! ;(

ABANG TAM BUAT KIUT ;)

kalau laa hidup sekiut ini la kan, haha
malam...zzzz ;D

ANDAI KU BERCINTA LAGI

lamo dok webcam ngn adik ngan kak aku weh braso... gano pakat wat sibok blako ni...

malam tidak berpurnama~

fajar tiada kejora~

jyeah!!!

PA~wuhuuuu

p/s~lamo eh dok paka raget gituh, tra skali,wakaka

SEJARAH MUNGKIN BERULANG

penangan main futsal dengan orang xberapa faham main friendly dengan tournament ni la jadinya... makanya jadi anak dara laa aku cuti ni....

right after futsal i went back with izhar... the time already 11 something, and the road was empty... so i speed up along jakal, it was fine, but... when ur using ringroad kan u have to take the motor lane kan, and not to mention mmg excited la bila jalan kosong ni... so there's me, and izhar behind the seat, speeding like 150km/h, excited la sangat nak tengok max pegi berapa la kan,... tiba2, poomMM!!! bukan langgar orang ke langgar tiang, tiba2 ada satu beca, dua motor pandai btol bawak pelan2, dan cantik dalam barisan sejajar, macam jalan bapak dia yang punya, ceiittt... and i was like tekan brek kuat2 dengan ankle yang terseliuh dah... dan dengan kepakaran yang ada, ditambah dengan ciri2 motor yang sangat lah convenient, comel je aku cari ruang2 yang tersisa dan memotong mereka2 yang tak berapa sedar nih...

two things yang sangat naseb baik, dan maybe Allah still sayang nyawa ni ialah, break belakang xpakai break disc lagi, if not konpem2 tersasar kat batang pokok sebelah tu, xpon divider jalan kan, xnak den bawak anak orang ni.... second, naseb baik yang menompang kat belakang tu pandai dan taw cara2 jadi pembonceng, maksudnya?? yee dia rapatkan body dia btol2, if not during emergency break like that orang belakang buat hal pon maka tersasar lah motor ke kiri dan ke kanan yee.... maka tersangat lah bersyukur xjadi pape kat aku, anak orang lain, dengan bumble bee tu... (bestnya dapat superbike nih!!!!grrr...)

tapi ada gak benda2 yang terkilan dengan kejadian2 yang berlaku semalam apabila... kaki ni bertambah bengkak akibat tendangan orang batak ni, nak cakap sial macam xsopan kan, so cerdik punya orang pon jadilah... second xdapat bersama2 menjayakan mabit bersama2 teman yang lain semaximum mungkin, nak buat camane bangun first2 td pon kena tahan dulu rasa berdenyut2 kat kaki ni, ya Allah, ingat kan macam kena peripheral aterial disease dah tadi -___-"... tapi Alhamdulillah dapat la jugak bersama2 lepas diorang balik masjid... dan yang ketiga terkilan nya walaupon macam tade kaitan dengan perkara2 diatas tapi xpelah alang2 dah menulis nih, adalah apabila bermain futsal sama orang2 yang xberapa kenal dalam satu team, dia akan buatkan kita rasa xde fun langsung, dan boley sakit je, jasmani mahupon rohani, hew3...

sedikit tazkirah dipagi tadi yang saya(ohh tiba2 saya la pulak kan,haha) pikir agak membangun kan jiwa yang dah lama terlena dibuai keindahan dunia yang sementara ni adalah tentang " sejarah yang mungkin berulang "... untuk membina semula tamadun Islam yang telah sekian lama merudum, jatuh, ditindas, dan dihina oleh musuh2 Islam ni, maka kemungkinan besar jika sejarah itu berulang maka peperangan pasti berlaku... tidak kira lah dalam erti kata secara fizikal atau dari pelbagai bentuk yang lain... kalau nak diikutkan dari pandangan logika nya, mereka2 ini takut untuk berperang secara fizikal kerana daripada peristiwa atau sejarah yang lalu susah untuk mereka2 ini untuk menang, tetapi tidak mustahil perkara ini boleh berlaku... jadi kemungkinan besar nya peperangan yang dilancarkan oleh mereka2 ini dalam bentuk yang lain seperti minda, dan rohani... tidak kira dalam bentuk apa pun, bagaimana dengan kita??? sudah bersediakah?? apa kita akan jadi seperti mereka2 ini yang sewaktu Islam ditindas pada zaman dahulu, mereka minta supaya Nabi besar kita Nabi Muhammad saw meminta supaya turun nya wahyu untuk berperang, tetapi setelah itu mereka melarikan diri??... ataupon mereka2 yang berkata pergilah kamu berperang bersama tuhanmu, sesudah menang beritakan lah kepada kami??kalau dizaman kita ni mungkin orang akan cakap, pergilah, menang nanti update status difacebook gitu kan?? -__-"... ataupon sahabat2 yang berbekal kan keimanan yang teguh mentaati perintah ini turut bersama berperang di jalan Allah??? jadi insyaAllah, berbekalkan waktu yang semakin suntuk ni, mari lah beramal, kurangkan benda2 laghaa, tingkatkan produktiviti, keimanan, dan ketakwaan kepada Allah swt... *sekadar menasihati diri sendiri yang masih leka, insyaAllah...

" umat Islam itu dikurniakan kemuliaan oleh Allah swt dengan Islam, jika umat nya sendiri yang meninggalkan Islam, kemuliaan itu akan hilang, kita akan ditindas dihina. "

aaa allisya umor 1 tahun esok!!! baru taw after called my mum just now, 7 july, hmmm mcm menarik, ni kess tiru pak sdare ke nk tarikh lahir lawo2,... and now she's preparing a small party to celebrate allisya tomorrow!!! ni mana adil niii, ish3.... macam btol la pulak kata2 kawan sorang nih, kalau ada pintu doraemon kan best, boleh balik rumah jap,.. katanya kakak budak tu dah banyak membebel sekarang, walau xpaham sepatah haram dia cakap mcm best gak arr buat halwa telinga malam2 kan,haha....

tengah best sembang2 pasal melawat rumah orang tua tetiba battery habes la pulak, ceittt... hopefully lepas abah blk surau ni dia kol balik lah kan,... feel like request something from u dad~hehehe...

malam ni harap2 dapat la regain consciousness balik, nawaitu btoi2, moga berjalan lancar, amin

ANATOMY

ohh indahnya anatomy, sudah lama tidak ketemu...sukses semua yaa zzzZZZ...

" don't talk about running before u could walk "

GROW OLD WITH YOU

" oh i could be the man who grows old with you "

what a great experience having some good times with the old timer, some were good, some were not so good... as i got this one old lady who already reach 100 years old, it was a great moment spending time with her... her hearing is already not so good, so i had to speak word by word, and louder when i asked question... there's a time when i don't know how to respond, or should i say to comfort her when she was telling me about her husband... her husband died at the time when her daughter was 1 year old, and she never married since then... why?? because she's too afraid that if she got married, the new husband will not be as that gentle to her daughter, plus she loves her husband so much, she's crying u know, tsk3... and i was like, errr, kira2 mbah trimo tau nggak ukuran tinggi sama ukuran berat nya berapa??? and its funny when she was damn blur with that sudden question!!! >.<" luls...

i guess this is a great experience or should i say as a starter for the future perhaps... why not, even just now i was shocked when... aaa how to say, isk3, i asked her to lift her cloth, i mean the arm part la kan, so i can measure the blood pressure... it was at an open space, where a lot of old ladies and other members did the interview... when she could not lift it properly, she stood up, and unbutton the cloth, all were like stared at me, errr... but still i act cool only, lol... so take precaution ye people, maybe for old people this thing may just happen, as a doctor, do what is ethical, or as it just happens, act cool, control the situation, hehe...

aaahh i think enough for now, great experience with the lovely ladies, we laughed, we sang, we clapped, and we're in love, thanks ugm...

p/s~ i regain my consciousness, xjadi give up, sorry for the last post, hope she/he s gonna be fine soon, amin ^^"

KOTAK HATI

hmmm.anything lah.give up.kbai

AFTERLIFE

salam, ur doing fine people?? good... me??(u dont ask??) nevermind i'll tell u anyhow, haha... just went back from kedai to get food for the HAMSTERSSS... not so good, the shop closed, and this is the second time already, nahh nevermind... maka, berlapar lah kamu wahai hamster2 sekalian makan roti kosong yeahh...

the good news is that, my baby homed!!!!yeahhaaa!!! but without amp yet, xlarat den nak angkut banyak2 atas motor tadi kan... after many months uve been missing, at last, phewww... when i entered the 'mini studio' just now, it looked haunted, the pictures on the wall, spiderwebs everywhere, the dusts everything, haha... and im like, oucchhh my sweet heart, u must be missing me all these time kan kan kan...uhukss, hew3... sorry i lied, none of those are true oke... so she's home, safe and sound...

ive been wondering lately, WONDERING kan, why the surrounding now macam asyik duk cakap pasal kawin eh??if the girls mcm oke, orang cakap dah umur2 dia kan, even my sister pon used to talk to me about guys, asking opinion and everything, haha... but if guys how??(buat2 tanya padahal adik dorm dulu pon dah kawin, terkejut den), just now i entered one of the friend's room(x gtaw nama eh), and he was like really focus thinking of something... so i asked what's wrong?? he said hes thinking about allowance, if they can raise allowance like rm1500 per month kan bagus... i asked again why?? and he kept on calculating rm1500 per month, means 3mill something per month, and per year gonna be like 42mil... and i was like, errrr... and u could guess what hes gonna say right?? kalau dah 42mil per year, boleh kawin laa ni, sedap nyaa...haha, then dont surprised, he shouted loud, NAK KAWINNN!!!,LOL... but to be honest, for a medical student, uhukk yeahh medical student, plus started at age like this, tinggal berangan jela jawabnya kan, hew3...but nothing impossible people, when the time comes, u cant resist aite, semoga dipermudah segalanya lah kawan, hehe...

and these few days too i keep on listening to avenged sevenfold songs again huh, macam dah lapuk kan, zaman2 a level dulu2 but it still sounds good u know, like sounds good like that, get me??hehhehheh, pheww... ramadhan dah dekat ni kena cepat2 laa khatamkan yang berbaki nih, xley lara2 sangat dah kot... ohyaa tomorrow already MONDAY people!!! have to go la ni, tingkatkan produktiviti, dan segala macam, have a good day, salam... =)